Monday, December 22, 2008

Understanding where I am as of now.

Well, the truth hurts. So i'm gonna write it down and look at how bad it hurts. 

-Never really had a Girlfriend. Mostly because I am an asshole. 
-I've got about 2 good friends. One who plays World of Warcraft and is overly into his manhood. and the other who is 6'4, 285 pounds, and wouldn't hurt a fly. 
-I've got alot of people who used to be friends, that I have told to fuck off because they have pissed me off somewhere along the road. 
- Im living off of about 5-6 hours of sleep a night. 
-My house could be a great place to hang, its just not clean. and lacks fun things. 
-I don't spend much time with my family, which bugs my Father, and bugs me. Because he has given so much things to me. 
-Ive "played" a guitar for a year now. Which is Bullshit, I have learned about 5 chords and strummed a couple songs. 
-I play football and baseball. And to my standards, I dont commit myself at all to these except for what is required. 
-Im all talk. And Show. Never Actually Do. 
-Im a No man. 
-I am a dick. To just about everyone. I dont smile unless i need to. And if u aren't up to my standards, then too bad for you. 

Now that ive thrown that out there, I'd like to make some propositions. 
-Quit being an Asshole to people for the heck of it, how about being nice and cool to people for the heck of it.
-Make amends with some people who probably want me to go jump a bridge. 
-Say Yes, to just about everything. 
-Do something. 
-Sleep so much I feel like I dont leave my bed.
-Clean the damn house. And make it look amazing. 
-Practice guitar, hell maybe get lessons, and do something something fun. 
-Look myself in the eyes, Discover what truly makes me happy, and be happy. 
-Tell my parents i love them. Hug them. and make sure they know i mean it. 

That took alot for me to do. But hey, the truth is the truth. And i want something better. 

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