Happy New Year.

I am pathetic. 

I have no friends i just spent the new year celebrating with.

I sat at home and watched as a fire burned. 

12:00 rolled around, I didnt even notice. 

I am pathetic. 

and i am sad. 

Very sad. 

I now have one more resolution to make. Do not feel like this next year. 

I would like to take tonight to realize that all the stuff ive said and done that created this, were absolutly not worth it. 

Im in FUCKING high school and i am not out partying right now. 

I have failed. 

And right now the only hope i have is to simply change. 

I cant believe i feel like this.