The Beginning

I have two goals: State. and An 8 pack. 

Today began football workouts, and i want nothing more than to be lifting a state championship trophy come november. 

Also today i began eating for my ultimate goal of a beautiful body. 

Let the games begin....

Today I grew up.

I planned all of my meals and workouts for the month of January, beginning January 5th. 

To tell the truth I'm scared and anxious. This month will set the foundation for the rest of my life. 

I want this to be something amazing. But I talk too much and dont do. 

So beginning January 5th, I will begin to do. 

And i will do for as long as I can. 100%. 

These post will become more informative and less what i am thinking and feeling. 

I am in control. My future is in my hands.

Happy New Year.

I am pathetic. 

I have no friends i just spent the new year celebrating with.

I sat at home and watched as a fire burned. 

12:00 rolled around, I didnt even notice. 

I am pathetic. 

and i am sad. 

Very sad. 

I now have one more resolution to make. Do not feel like this next year. 

I would like to take tonight to realize that all the stuff ive said and done that created this, were absolutly not worth it. 

Im in FUCKING high school and i am not out partying right now. 

I have failed. 

And right now the only hope i have is to simply change. 

I cant believe i feel like this. 

Moving Forward. Sort of.

Well today I did some things that are going to help me get ready again. 

I ordered Precision Nutrition and I am going to use it for my dietary needs. 

I also Meditated yesterday which really helped out with being stressed. 

Another thing i did today was I bench pressed 215 lbs. 5 months ago I could only bench 145. Imagine where i can be in 12 months. 

The principle of Hard Work in turn creates Success comes to mind. 

My favorite thing about the day though was something i heard Steve Jobs say, it went something like"Each morning I would look myself in the mirror and say 'Am i going to enjoy what i am going to do today?' If the answer is No enough days in a row. I need to change something."

Let the countdown begin

We have 4 days until i officially begin my journey. Im mentally preparing myself for it.

I will do this. 

I bought some superfoods to put into my diet, and some new techniques to relieve stress. 

I purchased Acai, the amazonian superfood, and Chia, the seed of the ancient Indian empires. 

I have began doing Heated Yoga, and hope to start doing 2-3 days a week of it. And i also have begun to using Breathing Meditation every morning and night to relax. 

I feel these things will truly help me. 

Commit To Win.

By the time this journey is over, i want to be a new man. 

I want something great to be about me. I want people to look at me and say wow. 

My new goal is to be the leader of my football team. I want to do everything i can to become the best football player and person i can be. I want my teammates to look me in the eyes and know that i would do anything to help them on or off the field. I want to feel the feeling of desire and drive for a certain goal. I want to be THE BEST PERSON I CAN BE.

Momento Mori

I just finished reading Craig Weller's post on his blog in Barefoot Fitness and came across a chart he made labeled "Momento Mori" which means 'one day you will die'.  He has a chart of boxes, 52 wide 80 boxes tall. Each box signifies a week of his life. And each week that passes he crosses it out. I think i am going to begin using this chart myself. I also just came across Precision Nutrition, which i plan on buying and using. It is a very nice program that i believe is dignified to be my nutritional source. Im very unhappy with myself as of right now, my body is fat, i have pimples everywhere, and i am having trouble concentrating on important things. I am in dyer need for a change. Let it be soon, because my true problems are nothing but ones that i have created for myself. 

Im in hell right now. I can stay here and get the shit kicked outta me, or i can fight back into the light. I can climb out of hell. Inch by Inch.